every last detail // my whole30 experience.

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21 days in! B O O M.

L E T ‘ S  G E T  C L E A N.

I’m trying to figure out how to start this post. I want to tell you all the things– all the decisions, and details, and reasons, but I’m just not sure how to begin. I think I’ll start with me, a month ago, feeling lazy, and heavy, and blah. A good a place to start as any, I guess. The holidays were over, we were deep into winter, and I just didn’t feel good about the way I felt or the way my clothes fit. I was eating whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted, my skin was itchy, and my sinuses were crap. And so, I went out to change a few things.

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My decision to try The Whole30 came from a mix of different places. A little over a year ago I talked with my friend Kristin about her experience with Whole30. I felt encouraged by her success, asked a lot of questions, and then basically put it on the back burner of my mind. Did I think it was awesome? Yes. Did I think I could do it? No.

In February and March I knew of two other friends that were trying Whole30. My good friend Liz loved it so much, she’s continued to live a Whole30-inspired lifestyle, which really got me to think more about trying it myself. And yet. I put it on the back burner of my brain AGAIN. But every time I’d get together with her {and saw how TERRIFIC she looked. Seriously.} I’d think to myself– I should do that someday. I should try that.

Another friend of mine from college switched to a Paleo lifestyle, and she called me on the phone one day SO EXCITED about her sinuses. You see, she used to get sinus infections A L L  T H E  T I M E. Every month, every week, it seemed– but when she stopped eating like she used to and started eating clean, she stopped getting sinus infections completely. WHAT? As a long time sufferer of allergies, and more recently, some serious sinus trouble, this sounded AMAZING. Sign me up! Someday.

Someday.

Someday.

Someday.

Always someday, never today.

Until now.

I don’t know exactly what finally caused me to commit. I’m thinking it was a combination of feeling unhealthy, and seeing others’ success. My two friends Janee and Molly have been huge inspirations. My friend Jolie started eating clean, and is making a real effort to get fit. And so, one weekend in early February I just said LET’S DO THIS. TODAY.

And I am so glad I did.

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You can read all the nitty gritty details about The Whole30 here, but I’m going to write a little bit about my eating experience, and what it’s meant to me.

First off, you can basically eat only 6 main staples. Protein, vegetables, fruit, oils and butters, coconut and olives, and nuts and seeds.

It’s not a lot, but it’s plenty.

You cannot eat grains, dairy, sugar, legumes, or alcohol. Basically, any kind of processed food is out, and only REAL NATURAL food is in.

For me, this has been a life change. I used to eat a lot of processed food, a lot of grains, and dairy, and chocolate. It’s what I grew up with, it’s what all the commercials and even doctors told me was good, it’s all that I knew. This new way of eating is different, but it’s not bad. Also, I picked a time of the year when not much is happening and I can easily make my own food and be successful. No vacations, no celebrations, just me, making a lot of trips to the grocery store, spending a lot of time in my kitchen.

You’re supposed to eat 3 balanced meals a day, following this meal plan, and avoid snacking. I sometimes snack, because I just can’t help it, but the things I’m snacking on now are way better than anything I was ever snacking on before.

Here are some of my go-to meals:

BREAKFAST

Always eggs {scrambled or soft boiled}.
Greens {cooked kale, broccoli} or butternut squash, or sweet potatoes, or carrots, or any veggie, really!
Sometimes maybe a banana with almond butter. Or raspberries. Or blueberries.
Black coffee. {Not as bad as you’d think. I tried coconut milk in it {whole food brand, in a can}, but didn’t love the way it seemed oily.}

LUNCH/DINNER

I mix up my proteins and veggies and try to make enough for leftovers.

Turkey meat sauce over spaghetti squash
Fish with turnips and collared greens {Zan made this one night. YUM.}
Beef Stew
Paleo Pad Thai
Marinated chicken and salad {My friend Liz told me about this dressing and it is amazing.}
Mom’s Chicken Soup {from Whole Foods}

Also, always a little side of fruit. Usually berries. Sometimes watermelon. Today mango. YUM. And nuts. I like cashews and pistachios. Mmm.

People swear by avocado, but I got sick on an avocado once {like reeeeeeallly sick} and remember getting stomach pains when previously eating them, so I haven’t been adding any to my meals. I know, I know, HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE AVOCADO??, everyone always asks. To which I answer, I just don’t like feeling sick. Duh.

Mostly, my meals are simple. Which is fine by me, I was never a terribly fancy meal eater anyway.

Another note: Zan is eating grain-free, dairy-free right now. He’s been traveling a lot for work lately, so hasn’t been able to commit to Whole30 completely {you really do need to have control of a kitchen}, but when he’s here, he eats what I make OR if I’m lucky, he’ll make a delicious clean dinner for me. He is WAAAAAAAY better in the flavor department, so I relish in this.

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Things I miss:

Egg salad sandwiches on wheat bread
Chocolate chip cookies
Bruegger’s bagels.
Going out to dinner.
GOAT CHEESE.

For the most part, it’s actually surprising how painless this has been for me. When you delve into the internet and read other people’s Whole30 experiences they talk a lot about cravings, and headaches, and weird dreams, and “hating everything”. I never experienced any of that. I really just try to eat until I’m full and make sure to have a snack with me in case of emergencies. Once I’m satisfied, I don’t feel any cravings. Do I still claim to love chocolate? Obviously, forever, but it’s been fine to go without it for the time being.

When I told my friend it wasn’t that hard, she responded with, “It’s your attitude.”

And I completely agree.

It’s 30 D A Y S. Not a lifetime.

I’m sure some people are rolling their eyes at me. I know it’s not so easy for everyone. I know it’s hard to be social when you can’t eat what everyone else is eating or drink what everyone else is drinking {or even at all}. And believe me, I KNOW that dessert is amazing and that grilled cheese is heaven {I remember}, but I  also love the perspective they give on the Whole30 website: “It is not hard. Don’t you dare tell us this is hard. Beating cancer is hard. Birthing a baby is hard. Losing a parent is hard. Drinking your coffee black. Is. Not. Hard. You’ve done harder things than this, and you have no excuse not to complete the program as written. It’s only thirty days, and it’s for the most important health cause on earth – the only physical body you will ever have in this lifetime.”

To which I say, A M E N.

Although, I do plan on eating like this at home indefinitely {probably more Paleo, which is very similar}, I also plan on enjoying the occasional dinner out or indulgence when we’re traveling. Of course! Because, LIVING! But I’m liking the way this food is making me feel, and I like knowing EXACTLY what I’m putting in my body, so why not continue to eat this way as much as I can?

After 21 days, consider me sold.

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A little bit about the results, so far…

I’m not done yet, but as of day 21 I want to write down some of the differences I feel since starting the Whole30.

SLEEP

Best sleep ever.

I put my head on the pillow, and OUT LIKE A LIGHT. I don’t wake up in the night, I don’t toss and turn, and when my alarm goes off in the morning, I don’t feel like I want to cry.

{Also, and this isn’t necessarily Whole30 related, but ever since getting my Fitbit, I feel like I’m in a race with myself to get a good amount of hours in each night. I’m trying for at least 7 hours, which means I have to put some effort into settling in earlier than I’m used to.}

SINUS /ALLERGIES

I used to be ADDICTED to Zyrtek. Not even kidding. I’d take it every day for itchy nose and sneezing, and also itchy skin. I took it every day for probably close to 5 years. Two weeks before I started Whole30, in an experiment to “see if I could do without it”, I stopped taking it. Just up and stopped. My skin itched LIKE CRAZY for maybe three weeks, and now it doesn’t! I can’t say for sure if this is because of the Whole30, but I’d like to think so.

Also, my sinuses are really bad. I can’t smell that well, only really strong scents, and even once had an MRI to look into it. {I’m fine.} Turns out I’m prone to sinus infections, but I don’t get symptoms like other people do {face hurts, headaches} so I could go a long time without even realizing I have one or worse, having it treated. So far, my smell seems to be the same, but I’m hopeful. Another reason why I’m going to keep this way of eating up– I’ve read that people do have improvements in smell, so maybe I just need more time.

ENERGY

I feel so good. So so good. I feel well rested, and energetic. I don’t get that tired feeling after work that I used to get, which is amazing. The first two weeks I didn’t exercise {and maaaaany weeks before that}, but I went to the gym to walk every day last week and today I woke up early and did 30 minutes in the pool. ROCK STAR STATUS. I attribute this change in exercise to both the Whole30 and my fitbit. It all feels so fantastic.

WEIGHT

As far as weight goes, I am curious to see how the Whole30 changes my body. I’ve never been terribly obsessed with my weight, but the months leading up to this, I did feel heavier than usual, and the scale told me the same. Mostly, I want my pants to fit like they’re supposed to and it would be nice for my stomach to be flat. :) Technically, I’m not supposed to weight myself until the 30 days are up. I cheated, obviously, and checked in a few days ago {I’m only human}, and yes, I’ve lost a few LBS, which is awesome– but what’s more awesome is the way I feel, and that, FEELING GOOD AND ALIVE, is the thing I want to remember best– the most important thing of all.

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Lastly,  some of my favorite resources:

For questions:

The Whole30 website has been my go-to. I basically google ” _______ (food) Whole30″ every single second and I’m brought to the Whole30 forum, where someone, naturally, has had that same question already. Very helpful.

For recipes:

Against All Grain

Eating Whole {and her instagram feed is awesome, too!}

{For true Whole30, Paleo recipes often need to be tweaked a little, but only in the slightest!}

For life:

The Eighty Twenty {I’ve linked to it once or twice before, but it’s a wonderful online space that truly celebrates living a clean, real lifestyle.}

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And that’s basically it. How I loved and lived Whole30 for 21 days, and how I will happily carry out the next 9 and beyond.

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Thanks for reading this monster of a post.
I never read posts like this myself,
so if you’ve gotten to this point,
A GOLD MEDAL FOR YOU!

Questions/comments? You know where to find me.

And if you have favorite recipes or blogs, send away!

dear diary // a post about lately.

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I just got back from the grocery store. I snapped a photo of these flowers I bought, put them in water, and then sat down to write. I feel like it’s been such a long time since I’ve been on this space. Life has been happening, I’ve just not found the time or motivation to write anything down. I blame it on February. February is hard.

This past week I was on winter vacation from school. It always comes at a time when I just need a break– so I welcome it, and I savor it. Before we left school last Friday we had to have all of our report cards done and comments written. Report card comments are a new thing for me and my goodness did I procrastinate writing them, which is always the way I do things. The very last minute comes around and I’m up till all hours, and then I finish and I think to myself, Well that wasn’t so bad, why on earth did I wait so long? Oh, it’s just the way of it, and who knows if I’ll ever learn.

A few weeks ago my grandmother, whom I love and adore, fell one afternoon and had to be brought to the emergency room. It turns out her spinal stenosis had caused her so much pain in her back that her legs gave out and she lost control of her balance. Since then she has been using a wheel chair, but really needs help to do so many things, as she just can’t get around on her own. This news literally shook me up and had me fearing all sorts of sad things like death and loneliness. I can’t imagine life without my Grammy– and even the thought of her unable to walk got me all worked up and hysterical. Over the last 3 weeks my mom and dad have been taking turns driving down to Connecticut to help out and figure out the next step. My mom is so good with these things– talking to doctors, and figuring out the details. It was decided she would have surgery on her back to help remove a disk that was bothering her and we all went down this week to be with her while she was in the hospital. I am so glad that I was able to go and spend the week with her. There is no other place I would rather be.

{She’s doing very well at the moment. Thank  you, THANK YOU for your prayers.}

Other than that, life has been plenty fine.

I am desperate for spring to come after I’ve gotten a taste of it today, but I’ve also been loving spending weekends up in Vermont on the ski slopes. I bought a 4 pack this year in efforts to join Zan {skiing is his love language} and so far, so good. It’s GORGEOUS up there, the ski house is awesome, and gosh darnit, I think I might be pretty good. I have pictures to share soon, so be on the lookout for them– they really are out of a storybook.

Also. I’ve drastically changed my eating habits the last few weeks in an effort to feel healthier and hopefully figure out some allergy and sinus problems I’ve been having for a few years. I’m doing the Whole30 and today marks day 13 and I feel really good. Whole30 is something I’ve been thinking about doing for a long time, and one weekend at the beginning of February, I just decided to go for it and haven’t looked back since. I have plans to write a post about the whole experience, but for now I’ll say this– it’s not that hard and I sleep like I’m dead.

The one other thing I’ll add is that I have a good amount of energy, which makes me really happy. There were days in the past where I’d be so tired in the afternoon and right now I don’t feel any of that. I got a Fitbit to help motivate me to exercise more, and I can’t say much about that yet either since I’ve had it for less than 24 hours, except for the fact that I have been powering it around town the past 2 days like I’m on a mission, so there’s that. 10,000 steps does seem like a reach for me at this point {which is both sad, and true}, but I’ll be sure to report back, when I have more thoughts about it. Just gotta keep walking. Wish me luck.

This was so DEAR DIARY I almost wonder if I should post it at all, except I will, and that will be that.

Also, my groceries are waiting.

Until next time, dear friends! I hope to be back soon. :)

snow day.

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The snow outside my window right now is honestly the prettiest thing. The flakes are the perfect size and steady. The ground and trees and houses are covered in fluffy powder and the sky is the most exact shade of white. I am ready for spring {always}, but a day off is nice, too, of course. Today we made eggs and bacon for breakfast. And lucky us! A leftover sticky sticky bun from the weekend was hanging around our kitchen, too.

Things have been good here lately. Friends have come to visit, weekends have been filled with a little bit of everything, and the school days are moving quick and smooth. A sweet spot, warm and good in the midst of a cold, dark winter.

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I wanted to thank you so much for all your suggestions and comments on my West Coast post last week. I’m so glad I asked because we really don’t know anything about that part of the country aside from the Golden Gate Bridge and the wonders of the Pacific Ocean. Now I have a long list of places to go and things to see. It’s so fun taking the time to research every restaurant, view, and attraction. I have been spending most nights googling this and googling that. I know our trip is over 2 months away, but I want to have it planned just so, and all your comments have been an amazing help. THIS PLACE was brought to my attention via an instagram friend and well, PASSION EYES FOREVER I was able to book us a night there at the tail end of our trip. DREAM A LITTLE DREAM, OH YES.

Anyway! Today is a treat and I plan to spend it as such. I hope you’re having a cozy one!

a little taste of providence.

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Last Friday night I headed to Rhode Island for a girls night in with some of my favorite blogger/twitter/instagram friends. Gathering with internet friends is a regular occurrence for me, and while there was a time in my life when I thought this was unusual, I’m mostly of the mindset now that it AIN’T NO THING! It feels like the most natural kind of friendship in the world at this point. And especially with these ladies. We spent the night at Lindsay’s drinking wine and talking about life. A real life sleepover, which, if your wondering, is still as fun as the early years.

Before this trip, I’d been to Providence once in college to see John Mayer play {in HIS early years, at a small dive bar– the intimacy!}, and one other time to walk around the Providence Place Mall. This trip was particularly awesome because I got the chance to actually see the city, and what a wonderful little city it is. In the morning we headed to brunch at The Grange {IDEAL INTERIOR with okay food {sticky bun, YES. eggs benedict, I’ve had better.}, then we walked around Westminster Street for a little while popping into shops, and also down Benefit Street to enjoy some of the architecture and each other’s company.

I had no idea I’d like Providence as much as I did, but I LOVED IT. What a great little city!

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Such charm, I love it. I will definitely be taking a return trip in the near future. I’m thinking maybe once the trees start to bloom.

Sigh. I bet it’s especially lovely in the spring. ♥